Well I’m 72 days in and my motivation has gone down.  Recently I got a thought of how great it would feel to have a few drinks.  Just to be able to relax a little bit.  Although I know that there is no way that I would be able to just stay relaxed.  I would get drunk and get lost.  I’d go off on a binge and come back to after I used up all my cash and ended up on the street or in the ER.  I’m done with those days.  I’ll try to constantly post in this forum.  I’ve been told journaling will hep me to get me out of my head, even if I feel foolish typing all of this in a public forum.