Author: Gagavitz Posada

Five Little Words

Posted by | Oct 30, 2018 | |

There is a show called “The Cleaner” about a man, an ex-addict, William Banks, who made a pact with God that if He got him out of his last run, William would be His soldier in this war.  William Banks gets calls to...

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6 months!

Posted by | Sep 9, 2018 | |

Well it’s been a while since I posted last.  I am proud and happy to say I now have 6 months sober.  It is not my longest stint, nor is it my first time, but it has been a long time since I have hit this benchmark.  I can...

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Mental Toughness

Posted by | Jun 23, 2018 | |

Last night I had another drinking dream.  It was odd.  I vaguely remember that I was kicked out of a program for drinking and then I went to a liquor store and bought a fifth of vodka, after which I went to my elementary school...

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Trust

Posted by | Jun 20, 2018 | |

They say trust is easy to lose and hard to regain.  In fact, there are many different sayings that have to do with trust and forgiveness: I’ll forgive, but I’ll never forget; you have to trust to be trusted; etc. ...

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Home Sweet Home

Posted by | Jun 17, 2018 | |

I am now out of treatment and back into the real world to begin my recovery.  On one hand it is a scary concept, but one about which I am excited.  At first all I felt was anxiety and nervousness.  Most people would imagine that...

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Reunion

Posted by | Jun 9, 2018 | |

As a follow-up, kind of, from yesterday’s post.  I saw my son today and it wasn’t awkward at all.  We had good conversation, good laughs and we caught up a bit.  I’m happy because he hasn’t checked out...

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Mess of thoughts

Posted by | Jun 8, 2018 | |

So I am out of treatment in about a week and I know I have some anxiety behind it.  I don’t recognize that i feel anxious, I guess because it is hard for me to actually identify what I feel at times, but I know that I have...

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Self-Care

Posted by | May 23, 2018 | |

I keep getting told that I need to make time for self care and for some reason I find myself resisting this and justifying not doing it.  This weekend I go back home to visit my fiancee and I was asked what I would do to take...

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2 months in

Posted by | May 19, 2018 | |

Well I’m 72 days in and my motivation has gone down.  Recently I got a thought of how great it would feel to have a few drinks.  Just to be able to relax a little bit.  Although I know that there is no way that I would be...

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